Saturday, January 15, 2011
Title of th lifestory:
Heyy (: hmm, where to start? I'm actually very drowsy and I can't sleep. I just can't sleep.. Tsktsktsk! Kinda sad right now ); Firstly, i'm down Wif fever and secondly, he didn't txt or ever call me ); well, Nevermind.. Must give him space right? Cannot always control him. Cause, if I'm th kind of person who loves controlling him, this relationship isn't going to b fun at all. So Yeahh.. Let's think positive Okayy girl? Maybe he's just too busy with his stuffs.. So Yeahh.. Hmm. Tomorrow is our second month.. And I'm excited about that (: but idk about him.. He seems to have no mood at all or maybe don't wanna celebrate it.. I'm okay if he doesn't want to celebrate it cause I'm Okayy Wif it. Andand, I guess it's all my fault for breaking up Wif him on our first month! So stupid of me! Tsk! I'm so useless! ); if he is here right here now, right beside me, I would have hug him and lay my head at his shoulders luhh.. But Nevermind. He's not here Wif me now. I really don't knw if he cares about our second month or not. And I love him so much ); Jesus! I don't knw wht to do! I mean seriously! This few days, my heart doesn't seems to be right. And idk why. Could some people who can read my mind or heart well,then tell me why? i dun knw what I'm thinking about now... Haish ); maybe, I should leave him fr awhile fr a moment. At th dot on 0000, I'm goin to wish him a two months anniversary(: frankly, I've been so upset this few days. What I mean was actually I was upset Wif my ownself luhh. I just dun knw why.. Haish); I mean, Att I read all th msgs tht he sent to khairiyah, my heart was crushed and was steped by people on th floor. And yes I was super sad but I dun wanna tell him. I don't wanna create anymore trouble. I don't wanna add more stress toward him. I've got my point why I don't wanna tell you some things. I wanna lessen ur burdern. I want you to be happy always. It's Okayy if I'm down or whatever, I just want you to be happy. Okayy sweetheart? If you're happy at some points, I'm happy for you too (: Alright? I've posted more than one post at my blog today , I guess.. Haish! I really dun knw what to do ): I lOve him to the core and it's from th bottom of my heart ); why can't you talk to hunney?? ); bye